perpetualdepression

 There was no hurry for the man to get to work. He was a dentist, and he owned his own practice. Nonetheless, he was annoyed to see his path blocked by a large, perfectly round boulder, about the size of a deer but arranged in such a way he could not possibly get around it on the narrow road. He got out and tried to move it, but it was hopeless. While perfect in shape, the boulder was impossibly heavy. Having no idea who the proper person to call about this was, he called the police. This road was the only practical way to get to his office. He was just calling his secretary to ask her to cancel his first appointment when the rock began to

In despair she came for me The soft words she spoke Passed me by like a parade I’m just a dream, she said You’ll try and remember me But even that will fade The dancing sky and moon Won’t recall the night I saw them for who they are For years we wept together Time passes by so fast Our lives a shooting star Forgiveness, wash away Thoughts of her leaving me I think I understand I’m sorry for all I’ve done I watched her destroy herself And I held her hand Days are erased in blurs So long as she’s alive I will recall her still The only words I think to say Are I love you now And that I always will I&rs

Melt away the plasticine smile I never did use it for art I don’t care much either way Collapse has been a mainstay I always liked falling apart I’ll take what I can From the model life This cold world can give I miss the sobbing refrains The life in decadent pain Where I used to live When I used to live I’m loved and clean and happy And all I do is so contrived While it can be honestly said That I’m glad I’m not dead I’d still rather that I were alive This happiness feels more like the apathy I failed so long to pull you above And I was never much use but Maybe I just needed an excuse To engage in drugs

But it's at the end of the day Finding ways that one can escape And well, I'll find, come what may That happiness cannot wait I do what I can, anything I take And I become more undefined And I feel like I'm awake in infinity As my body is caught dead in time Blue light shines around the moon And beckons to her cold embrace I want to seek solace in the sky Across from her heart shaped face Let my mind spare no expense That I might relive memories without pain Fight for what doesn't make sense If it can allow escape from pain I'm wrapped in sheets as my heart dies And I feel so alone and so free Trapped in my body as my mind f

I cannot stop thinking of you Though I'm decreasingly sure how Because it's not an intervention anymore It's too late, it's a funeral now You were someone who was perfect Every word you spoke I found so clever I was naive enough to believe you When you said you'd stay yourself forever I remember when we used to call ourselves Something beautiful, inseparable, mutually wired We'd talk for hours and still never get tired Of hearing our thoughts coming from each other We swore we'd never tire of one another Without your company, I didn't know what I'd do I wasn't blind to your flaws, but anyway I loved you I can still smell you wh

Trekking Onward, Every Moment I Live Younger And youth should be free So I will drag myself along And cling to laughing memories Like a dying bird to a song And if a tear should fall It's only in the dark of night Because it's only when I think That I know nothing is right And I'll live younger by the second Allowing  apathy to replace fear And go away until the day That I can finally disappear And if time is lost and sought Can it ever be regained? Can any amount of joy Erase subsequent pain? And I'll do whatever I can To erase you from my mind Where misdeeds and nosebleeds Are how I'm now defined And I'll sink into an i

I think that the more an end approaches The more we cling to the idea that it's all okay If that had been all what I truly wanted I think I might be alright with it this way Nothing I can hold in my hand forever Holds meaning when its soul is not embraced It doesn't matter how much we're together Now that the meetings lost their face And I wait for you And I wait for you Every breath I take is a losing struggle Every bite refused a means to an end I'm tired of going through the trouble To convince myself I won't lose it all again When awakeness and sanity is all but lost And I cannot seem to find anything to hold I can bury my

Comforting lies Lost replies No one to stare Into my hollowed eyes To be confined In one's mind There is no love To be left behind As I breathe in one more time I savor my last moments of The life that I am escaping from Breathe out and die unloved A name unknown The unringing phone The silent horror of one Who will die alone No friends will call No one sheds all The tears that I Secretly hoped would fall As I breathe in one more time I savor my last moments of The life that I am escaping from Breathe out and die unloved In my haunted face You can see the trace Of the dawning knowledge Of a life gone to waste As I

I am broken and empty. all i feared came to pass. but it's easy to shatter. when you build yourself of glass. emotion i didn't hide. tears i did not hold back. there was clearly no feeling . it was not hard for me to crack. i'd be so much happier. if it even seemed it was hard. for you to let me go. and try to cling to the shards. i've lost my grip on life. and my ability to care. but it seems you have too. so we'd be the perfect pair. and it'd almost be okay. if it just seemed hard. for you to let me go. and try to cling to the shards. everything that you were is all i still am. you can't even pretend. that